Khafa hoon Khafa hoon

It's been so much of the same. Get up at 7, rush to the metro and hope i don't miss the 8.30 one, be thr in office by 9, work till 6, get back home, check some mails, and chat with a couple of frds, go to sleep, wait for a weekend, spend the weekend without knowing what to do, call up home, a couple of frds, do some laundry, and get back to work on monday..

I was reading an interesting interview of Narayana Murthy(Chairman, Infosys) by Bob Hayward (of the Gartner research grp)... One specific question caught my mind.. Hayward asks why he(Mr. Murthy) thinks the issue of whether foreign direct investment is good for India or not still debated and why it was still not resolved? Murthy answers "Actually, there are two hilarious concepts in India. One is called MAFA— "Mistaking Articulation For Accomplishment." The second is that when we say, "All is said and done," what we really mean is, "Everything is said and nothing is done." Like it or not, we are a debating society, But just as other countries like Brazil and China have done, we must say enough is enough, and now is time for action. Otherwise, we will continue to a MAFA society."

I was completing my professional profile a couple of days back on a website and suddenly realized that I have so little to say professionally. Yeah, I did my Masters for sure, but am doing nothing different than probably what I would be doing if I had stayed back and worked like zillion others back home. Life was actually much more comforting when I was in grad school and occasionally read a paper or two from an ACM journal or was attending a research meeting. Not that I was on cloud nine then ( or am now !!! ) In either case, I have realised I am in a perennially depressed mood and need to mend my ways.

I am not sure where the phrase "MAFA" came from but it surely is the case with most individuals and groups not just when speaking about a nation or a government in macro-economic context. We seem to be complacent with what we think is perfection and further assume that we are on track to achieve it.

This reminds me on of my favorite quotes: "The best man is he who most tries to perfect himself, and the happiest man is he who most feels that he is perfecting himself." - Socrates

I am sad that I am neither perfect nor happy ! I am neither trying to perfect myself nor lost in my egoism (egotism ??) and happy that I am on my way to perfection.

Want to listen to my song of the day and get depressed ?? Listen to this one picturized on AB and sung by Kishoreda (from the movie, Bemisaal)

Kisi baat se mein kisise khafa hoon
Mein zinda hoon par zindagi se khafa hoon
Khafa hoon Khafa hoon Khafa hoon...

In solitude, where we are least alone.

Lord Byron

Rishtey

Had so many things to write over the past few weeks but the eternal procrastinator chose not to and finally i write one in my blues which has become so banal.

frankly this is not the usual "blues" i find myself in, but a rather "outsider" view of my experiences. tat sounds funny .. doesn't it :) .. let's not bother about it..

I have been wondering a lot as to why relations between any two people change.. why is it so volatile ? Before I go ahead let me also tell you that there is nothing "bollywood-ish" to be read in between my lines :)..

Throughout our lives, we get close to so many people: Be it a cousin, a close friend, an office colleague or a classmate... You seem to have found someone with whom u can fearlessly express urself, understand the other person, with whom u feel uninhibited about anything.. u don't have to act but can be urself... But somewhere down the line, the warmth, the closeness doesn't remain for long but rather fades away.. It seems to be a factor of geographic distance , the "communication frequency", differing interests, and so many more such dependent variables that start creeping into the equation...

I started thinking about all these when I was listening to one of my favorite songs penned by Kaifi Azmi.. Check out these last two lines of the song in Jagjit's voice after the writer makes a series of questions about "Rishtey" and then beautifully stops with this question that can set anyone wondering abt it !

kehte hain pyaar kA rishtaa
hai janam kA rishtaa
hai janam kA jo ye rishtaa to badaltaa kyon hain ?

You have to actually listen to the whole song to get its flavor (from the movie, Arth)

On a different note, I saw Shwaas last week. Its an absolutely terrific movie ! It definitely deserved not only an Oscar nomination but also an award (which it didn't). All the performances are very natural; Ashwin chitale who plays the (to be)blind child is simply superb ! The movie is based on a true incident. let me not divulge the story before you watch it!

Current Music: Aksar kyun yun lage ke tum koi aur ho (Shaan)